When I journal, sometimes I just write out how I’m feeling, sometimes I make plans and record dreams and feelings. I realised last week how much I need to spend this time nurturing my spirit, and as one friend said, 30 minutes a day is the least we deserve to do that in! With my new working pattern, I can get up at the same time I always did and spend that time, guaranteed.
I read a few books in this time, books that nourish me – I’ve been working my way through Louise Hay’s How to Heal Your Life since January, sentence or paragraph at a time. I’m also using a book I bought at Lindisfarne last year, called Celtic Daily Prayer and sometimes I’ve loved the theme of the month and sometimes I haven’t really got a lot out of it. I’m on day 11 of July and it’s been all about pilgrimages and why these can be important, and as I sat down to read it, I did so with a heavy heart, thinking it wasn’t really worth my while reading it at all. I love how the Universe laughs when we do that – because what I read was about T S Eliot, and how he noted that the Magi made a pilgrimage, but that act made life difficult for them because they “return where they came from, but changed, no longer at ease as they were before.” And suddenly I realised the wonder of the timing again, and the truth of what it said. I went back to the start of the month, to the introduction, where it said a pilgrimage was “a journeying to a particular place, in the expectation that such a journey will have deep significance.” It also said, “All kinds of people go on pilgrimages of sone sort or another, not all of them believers. It is a chance for things to move, to change, perhaps even for God to break into their lives.”
I had created this project to learn what nurturing might mean to me, and to encourage me then put any learning into practice. It would mean I would move, change, and yes, – the idea of just focussing on me is deeply significanct for me. Though my initial thoughts of pilgrimage were of hard lonely paths, with occasional stop offs to get basic needs of food, water and sleep met, if it is a journey of significance, with an aim in mind, then I’m a pilgrim.
THIS is a journey to ME, and a journey of change, and change can be less than totally easy, and is usually more permanent than not, especially when it’s a journey of the spirit and heart. If it’s a journey then there are days when I could get lost or side-tracked, or days when I have to deal with unexpected obstacles – but having that clear aim in mind will help get me back on the road I need to be on. And since I’ve always been more of a traveller than a tourist, I’m sure I’ll find much of what happens an adventure!