Project Me: 3/101 – Rome wasn’t built in a day?

I’m good at beginnings, I said yesterday. But not so good at endings. On the basis of today I’m not very good at the in-betweens either, and I’m just going to be honest about how I feel. You see, this nurturing malarkey is taking a while to get my head round, let alone live with.

Yesterday I spent time researching what nurturing might mean to others. I was trying to get ideas beyond the list i gave my friend yesterday and I got lots – even if not all of them appealed to me, but at least I was thinking about a new way of being. And I got a brilliant list of questions to journal on about what it all meant to ME from someone on Team Caroline, and I will journal about them but firstly I needed to give myself some space to filter them and then my brain was too tired to do anything after that. This could, of course be an avoidance tactic 😉

I went for quite a long walk with the dog yesterday, and ended up with blisters on my feet. I took the medication for my fibromyalgia as that was painful, as I figured that was a form of nurturing & it might help me sleep – but it didn’t, and it just made my head feel fuzzy! I set my alarm for 6 to have a walk before work (blisters covered) but I was so tired I changed my mind – yesterday I read that sometimes you nurture yourself by wakening up slowly. So I thought I’d try that instead – but I learned that I didn’t feel any better. I should have gone for the walk!

I didn’t nurture myself at lunch, eating on the run through a meeting. I didn’t enjoy my dinner of a new type of fish, which was late being served and because there was an argument at the table. I didn’t ask for help to do the dishes, figuring I shouldn’t have to – though I read asking for help is nurturing. Which makes sense but I’m not that good at that.

So I grumped about a bit and as football was on I came up to read or journal. Except I didn’t feel like doing either.

You can see I was having a real pity party! A half empty day. And when I feel like that there are a few options that work and if all else fails, I go for a walk or I go to sleep. This time I chose a walk. And as I walked, I breathed deeply – and that’s what made the difference. I felt energy returning and my mood lifting. So day 3 has shown me that:
– my type of nurturing is not someone else’s.
– I’m going to have some bad days when I don’t look after myself at all
– it’s trial and error to find what works
– some exercise is better than no exercise and I’m happier when I move
– asking for help is going to get easier!

Tomorrow is another day. That fact gives me hope! Beautiful as Rome is, it wasn’t built in a day – so I won’t be rebuilt in a day or two either.

0 thoughts on “Project Me: 3/101 – Rome wasn’t built in a day?

  1. bornattwentyfive June 27, 2012 / 9:47 pm

    Great post! You are right about Rome not being built in a day!

    • happinessvirus June 28, 2012 / 9:21 pm

      Thank you! I know- but I’m so impatient, I want it all NOW..

  2. thelifeallotment July 14, 2012 / 3:15 pm

    Found this x
    Feet; Our feet represent our connection with Mother Earth. Sore, swollen, numb or painful feet represent the state of our relation with our Mother. Mother Earth, and our base energies. While it is legs that carry us forward into Life, it is the feet that actually make contact with the ground and can stop any advance, or at least make it difficult. In modern society with its asphalt, concrete and High Rises, we lose touch with the Earth and its energies. This may be reflected in our relationship to the one who gave birth to us. Separation can cause real pain.

    • happinessvirus July 18, 2012 / 2:18 pm

      Hhmm.. interesting, that it made further progress harder…….!

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