Are you repeatedly miserable?

Are you miserable?
Are you repeatedly miserable?
Or angry, or filled with sadness or hate because others have wronged you?
If all we do is get angry when someone wrongs us, if we fail to set and maintain our boundaries or speak our truth, allow people to keep hurting us so we are like a punch bag that gets knocked down, only to bounce back to get more of the same – then it’s time to change.
Eventually our anger will turn outwards to rage, or inwards to depression, we will react violently (even if that’s emotional rather than physical) to the overstepping of our boundaries – or that punch bag will get damaged or burst, .
Know what presses your buttons and then DO something to change things. Even a little step matters.  And if you are struggling to do that yourself – isn’t it time to invest in a coach to support you?

How not to be happy

Try any of these for size:

1. Let money be your main guide to what you do with your life
2. Be vulnerable to the people you already know won’t support you
3. Ignore or override your inner voice, or heart, or soul
4. Continue to live a constantly unbalanced life
5. Follow someone else’s dream for you
6. Stay stuck with who you are with because it’s better than being alone
7. Fail to set and maintain appropriate boundaries
8. Depend wholly on external validation
9. Don’t go looking for your tribe
10. Fail to forgive and let resentment build up
11. Give from a place of emptiness or duty
12. Keep blaming others for where you are now


A Garden Is A Grand Teacher


A garden is a grand teacher. It teaches patience and careful watchfulness; it teaches industry and thrift; above all it teaches entire trust.  Gertrude Jekyll


For anyone to nurture themselves, boundaries must be set.  This is an area I’ve struggled with over the years, though I’m getting better with it – and I accept responsibility for my actions beforehand in not setting boundaries, or not moving quickly enough when any boundaries I DID set were ignored.  One of my team and I have been working at helping each other in this area, having had similar struggles.  Diane took over an allotment, is journaling and recording her way through that adventure and all the lessons she learned – and one of the lessons that keeps coming up for her is the importance of boundaries.   Part of this is about protection. She wrote to me:

“What I have discovered over the last few weeks with thelifeallotment is the need for protection. Interpret this in whatever way you feel may be relevant to you. I had hoped that I could just plant my seeds and let them grow and enjoy the fruits of my labour – ha! Oh no. There are a few things to be aware of.

First of all, there were the birds who hovered and took the seeds before they even got to take root. Secondly, there were the pests who ate at the roots as they started to grow and ones who went for the seedlings as they started to shoot. Thirdly there were the rabbits, if the boundaries aren’t there in the first place to keep them out, they get to wait until things are really starting to grow then they take the bits they want and leave the rest – oh and the slugs will take the bits they leave. It’s very hard to keep the slugs away no matter what boundaries are in place! Lastly there are the birds who will wait patiently until the first day they catch sight of the freshly, ripened fruit and take it before you get to enjoy it.

It’s not that all these things wouldn’t have been given away to people around me in the end once they had grown. I wouldn’t have kept it all for me. I would have shared it all. But I didn’t get the chance to watch it grow and enjoy it and make the choices for myself. The choice was taken from me because I didn’t have enough boundaries in place and I didn’t put enough protection in place to reap the fruits of the seeds i had sown and all my planning and hard work – physical and mental.


This is how i see these lessons relating to your current plans. There are going to be people who are going to be the birds, pests, rabbits and slugs. Either trying to put you off before the project even begins or gnaw away at what you are doing as it starts. There will be others though who will enjoy and use, for their own benefits, all the good stuff you put out there and, as it grows further, and without the proper boundaries, keep coming back for more and those who will just wait for the right bits, take them and fly. I know that you are a very giving person, Caroline, but I also know that you have put a lot of work into everything you have done and have dreams and plans and needs for yourself too. Take care that you have the right boundaries and protection in place so that you get what YOU need from this project physically, mentally, spiritually and financially. As you said, you find balance and nurturing yourself difficult. It’s ‘Project Me’ not ‘Project You’. That’s not being selfish – that’s just laying down some protection”.


Among other things, I wrote back to her saying:

Strange the need for protection; when I’d just written that I’ve protected my heart by forgetting my body, or by hiding my heart with my body perhaps… we do need protection for we fight a spiritual fight on many levels, which we can forget…and it is a key part of  nurturing, protecting our body, our minds and spirits, our energy too… funny too, how you speak of boundaries, and how we need these, but they might change as the allotment takes root and grows.. Mind you, I was rather depressed, thinking you either have to see all these predators as being fed by you, and you helping them, or gardening as a total waste of time 😉 and it’s not so good when the choices are taken away from you about all of this, except if the lesson learned will benefit you in the long run?  But I hadn’t thought about this in context of boundaries either…. and I will have to consider this more deeply, as something makes me feel this is an issue, as I’ve started to set different boundaries with certain people at work as a start, and perhaps some at home too… hhhm… thank you for being part of team Caroline! Can’t wait to see you and catch up; we need the encouragers in our life, & even when we don’t feel like encouraging, we do, as well as getting comfort at the same time…. giving and getting, all at the same time. xx

And just as I needed time to reflect on what she had shared with me, and time to process the learnings, it seems that this was exactly what she was doing too.  Such is the value of these special relationships in my life; we simply help and encourage each other.  Diane wrote back with some further insight, which I love….

The insects, birds, pests & rabbits aren’t people – they are the lessons we have to learn. The challenges we face. The hurdles we have to climb….for our own personal growth and development 😉 Make sense? I started out wanting to make sure all my boundaries (fence etc) were in place before starting to sow the seeds then, because time was moving on and the timing for the seeds being planted was making me feel under pressure, as was the fact that most other people’s allotments were looking great and progressing and looking healthy and growing. They were also giving me some of THEIR seedlings, plants and extra seeds they were giving away. I felt I HAD to go ahead and sow/plant them. But this is now the result. Not through ANYONE else’s fault (they were just being so kind, generous, considerate and helpful) – just completely my own.  I should have just gone with my OWN instinct.


See the thing is, I don’t need anyone to tell me what boundaries to set – I already know them, at an instinctive intuitive level.  All I need to do is see my life as a garden and instead of sitting in a deckchair planning how it will look, or what I will do, to just get out and do it.  A garden is a grand teacher. It teaches patience and careful watchfulness; it teaches industry and thrift; above all it teaches entire trust, said Gertrude Jekyll – and it teaches a whole lot more than that.

It’s my life, so it’s my boundaries

 “Boundaries don’t keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That’s how we’re made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them.”  Meredith Grey

At the outset of 2012, as usual, my “themes” and words for the year were clear – miracles, slowing down, letting go.  January was an amazing month in all these areas – yet, as usually happens, a month in and that’s already changing.  It happens.  I’m not forgetting the original aims, but I know now to be flexible and change as other things appear (often because you start to work on the other areas).   “Suddenly,” the issue of boundaries appeared.  It had been there, lurking – but it seemed to be a major theme for a number of my friends for 2012.   I was interested to see how they would learn to do set or maintain boundaries, but I knew it wasn’t one of my themes. 

And the Universe laughed – because of course it turned out that it was actually something I would need to consider this year, and I realised that because of the reaction I had to a particular blog – a reaction mirrored by one of my friends who already knew this was one of her themes.

For a while now, she’s wanted an allotment, a necessary tool for her in so many ways, but when she found out she’d got one, the critical thing appeared not to be what she planted in it – but the limits of the allotment.  She felt she needed to get her boundaries defined, not just of her own allotment, but it seemed that all those with allotments in that area “had” to define the wider area too, by planting trees.  This was such an important issue I knew that on a soul level, boundaries must be important to her, and so it turned out.   I sent her the link that I sent many friends, a blog that seemed to resonate with so many people in different ways – and I laughed when I got her response, because it was such an unexpectedly strong response; a response that had mirrored mine.

While she could absolutely see where the blogger was coming from AND her need to say what she had said, and do what she did in setting very clear boundaries in all areas of her life, she still felt that she was a “selfish cow,” in putting her own needs before others.  I understood her reaction, and I laughed because I’d almost had the same reaction.  And we both understood, because we’ve been there before on other issues, that such a vehement reaction meant that there were lessons in there that we needed to learn.

Reading the blog was perfect timing for me, as for a number of reasons, I was moving swiftly to full blown martyr syndrome about all I needed to do around the house, about what I seemed to be required to do in my job, and about certain friendships that were more about taking rather than giving.   As a result of reading it, I was able to re-establish some boundaries, re-define others, and set some new ones (making it clear respectfully what I expected going forward), and found I did so more easily than I expected. And I honoured and nurtured myself in the process, so I could easily answer my inner critic when she tried to send me on a guilt trip 😉

There are so many boundaries I feel it makes sense to protect – my time, my resources, my values and beliefs, my plans, how I spend my time, and who I spend that with, as well as the messages I choose to listen to; but more interestingly, I’m finding that I’m actually challenging long held boundaries, to see if those beliefs are still true to me.  Boundaries protect us in so many ways, and make life simpler because we know where we are with them, and we know what we cross.   So much of what I do or don’t do is around what my parents thought or what society thinks – ways of being that may have been useful at a time, but now limit my life.  Much of my life was lived with boundaries of orange and green, fundamental and “other”, and I know this is not how I wish to live now.

It’s my life, and that means it’s MY boundaries that matter, as long as I hold to the principle of “do no harm.”  So better late than never, I’m figuring out what they might actually be.. and where I might need to put my toe over any I currently have, and start crossing those that no longer serve me 😉

What boundaries might you need to re-evaluate, re-define – or cross?