Project Me – 36/101 – More Miracles of Next Steps

Project Me – 36/101 – More Miracles of Next Steps

And they kept happening..

Miracle 5: Lighten Up

I’m struggling with the changes going on, that I know need to happen and my reasons for not doing them – so many things; in fact, I’m sure this mental confusion may have led to me getting the flu (thanks Diane!) Through Spiral Heart’s Billy Goats Gruff event I see it’s time to lighten up; I am often too serious, too conscientious, doing so much out of duty. But change is hard -.and then I read this, which makes me change my attitude to this:

do whatever you can to make your transformational change a joy and a pleasure. Have fun!” Louise Hay

Miracle 6: Pilgrimage

I’ve already written about how this felt like a pilgrimage to me, and just when I am struggling with that idea, I read these definitions in Celtic Daily Prayer (daily reading):

A pilgrimage is “a journeying to a particular place, in the expectation that such a journey will have deep signficance”

Miracle 7: Relationships

I’m coming down with the flu and in a bad mood, so much so all I am focussing on is problems in any relationship I have, and that same day, Louise Hay reminds me that “relationships are a mirror of ourselves...” and I realise it’s ME that needs to change

Miracle 8: Surrender

I use Cheryl Richardson’s Grace cards (a phone app, though you can check it out here – http://www.cherylrichardson.com/wp-content/themes/crichardson/TwinkleStars_content.html) and the word I get is Surrender “the key that unlocks the door to grace”  I vehemently react to this concept, having struggled to be independent and stand up for my life – but realising this means surrender to the Universe, to what is, changes my thinking and feelings about this.  And a friend sends me a quote that says “I haven’t surrendered, I quit.”  This just feels like a load is off my back; the struggle has ended

Miracle 8: Grace

The app generates the cards randomly.  You swipe your hand backwards/forwards and it stops at a card.  I get “Watch” – “believe in the power of grace.  When one least expects it, a new door will open and the light of grace will illuminate our next step.”  That’s why I call this Miracles of next steps – because since the 13 July, every solitary day since that, when I have opened the app, no matter what card was last pulled, it opens at Watch.  I’m watching

Miracle 9: Goosebumps

I blog about the law of twice and go to work.  The day before was my worst ever day at work, so much so I had to just go for a walk to clear my head as I had so much to do and wasn’t feeling well.  On the Friday, it is a little bit quieter, and there are brief opportunities to talk to colleagues.  A conversation starts about Jack Black, with one colleague saying they would have liked to hear him, and another said they had heard him.  Sarah said she had really enjoyed what he said, but the one thing that stuck in her head was this law of twice.  I looked at her and said, Sarah, you will never believe what I posted today – sent her it through, and she said that she had goosebumps reading it.  Me too!

Miracle 10: Cycles

In some ways I feel at the edge of a void; scared, uncertain – not knowing what my next steps are, or who I might be.  Pamela asks me “why do you need to know?” And in panic I react, saying “I just need to know.  I’ve always needed to know what my next steps are, to have a plan.”  She reminded me this wasn’t actually the case – and wasn’t I learning that all I needed was the next step, revealed when I was ready?  That same day, I read:

In moving through the difficult stages of our lives, we can leanr to trust our heart to these cycles and their unfolding as surely as we can trust roots to go down and leaves to push up through the earth of our garden.” Jack Kornfield.  And he goes on to say:

“We can trust that whatever calls our attention in practice – our body, our personal history, the community around us- in or out of retreat, it will bring us what we need to live fully and genuinely in the timeless here and now.”

“We are learning to open in the timeless unfolding of our lives, being in greater and greater harmony with what is, with a greater inclusiveness of our heart to all the seasons of our lives.”

Perfect timing. Perfect

And still, they come…

 

 

Project Me 19/101 Try Something Different: Surrender

The law of twice. If within a short period of time you get the same message, listen. Even if it comes from different sources or in different ways. So two people mention an unusual book? Perhaps it’s time to read it. One person mentions a new idea to you and you turn on the TV and there’s a programme on that exact thing. Over time, I’ve learned to be curious about this aspect of life.

I sometimes use Cheryl Richardson’s Grace App. I love the pictures and I love the gentle loveliness of each card. 50 cards and randomness mean the chances of you getting repeat cards are very low – but it happens. Particularly if you are not listening. The day I thought about this Project Me being a sort of pilgrimage I pulled a card. Haven’t done that in a while. It said Surrender. “Surrender is the key to open the door of grace.”

Hhhhm, I thought. Didn’t expect that one. Why do I need to surrender? What do I need to surrender? I don’t like the idea of surrender. It means I have to give up control – and as a recovering perfectionist, that’s an alien concept. So I dismissed it. I do that when I don’t like an idea 😉

But it seems to be something I must consider more deeply, as I read this today again, “by accident,”:

Very little grows on jagged rock. Be ground.
Be crumbled, so wildflowers will come up where you sit.
You’ve been stony for too many years.
Try something different. Surrender. ~ Rumi

You’ve been stony for too many years. Does this refer to my failure to nurture and care for myself? Things are getting shaken up – yet isn’t that necessary if things are to grow? My two favourite flowers are bluebells and snowdrops and last week in Inveraray we came across a fairy foxglove growing on the walls. What is more beautiful than a wildflower?

Be ground.

Be crumbled.

Try something different.

Surrender.

I’m listening
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Follow your heart

(Some life lessons I liked that I thought I would pass on…)

Follow your heart,
never surrender your dreams.
Constantly work towards your goals.
Believe in yourself, and always be truthful.
Take time to enjoy life’s pleasures.
Keep your mind open to new experiences.
Think before acting,
but don’t forget the joys of spontaneity.
Make your own decisions.
Look out for yourself, but remember
that you share this universe with others.
Look for the good in others,
everybody has their own song to sing.
Live each moment to the fullest,
for a moment too soon becomes a memory.
Look for opportunities, not guarantees.
Hope for the best.
Give people a chance to love you,
for that is how you learn to love.
Live your life for yourself,
but always be considerate of others.
Believe in tomorrow, for it holds the key
to your dreams.
Melissa Ososki